Saturday, July 08, 2006
temporary farewell...
i felt bad feeling depressed about a friend's good news. maybe a bit selfish... maybe a bit stupid. i know i should be jumping for joy with her. she so deserves this big break in her life. she deserves this welcome surprise... this wonderful wondeful change. but, the moment i learned about what's going to happen, i felt really sad.
partly because of that big possibility that 3 months may might as well turn to 1 year or even longer... it all came as a surprise that there wasn't anytime to prepare myself from the reality that i might not see her as often as we normally would see each other. some changes i've accepted lately in my life were somehow dependent on the fact that she will be there. but now... that little, important reason is gone. i'm supposed to be enjoying a big chunk of CHANGE in my life because i have a friend nearby... but...
then there was this sort of mindset that she's the friend who's ALWAYS around. no matter how seldom or often we see each other, or hear from her... she's always nearby. you know she's there. just there. and now...
somehow... it's a bit odd that she's far away now. really far away. and it feels really depressing.
there was this list in a magazine that says if you have these kinds of friends in your lifetime, you're a really lucky woman. one type of friend was "the one you can't wait to be a golden girl with". almost instantly, she's the one in mind.
i might be being so melodramatic. overthinking what could be just a bit of hurdle in time... but truly, i'm a bit depressed right now...
MJ you're already being missed. hope to see you real soon again. face to face or even just in cyberspace. -17june2006
tweenkies_1106 at 11:19 AM